Not Gonna Lie…

For 4.5 years I have fantasized about being pregnant; the glow, the laughter, the sheer joy, constant celebration, cute preggo outfits, the weekly bump pictures (yeah, I’ve only taken 4 belly pics in 3 months)… Holy moly, the past 12 weeks have been a slap of reality for me! Don’t get me wrong, I am so ecstatic and full of joy and so grateful for this answered prayer and I wouldn’t change it for anything. With that said, it has not been glamorous for me- pregnancy can be rough (for some)! Ha ha I am not complaining, I’m just being real. From weeks 5 til a few days ago I lost 16 pounds, spent my days on the couch, rarely went outside, used all my vacation and sick days, barely ate, had constant nausea- “morning” sickness is a LIE!, been waking up every hour and a half to eat some apples and almond butter, one day I love eggs the next I curse their existence! But ALL this will be worth it in the end!

…Especially when at our 7 week appointment we heard Little Bean’s heartbeat for the first time! Tears on tears! And we got to see the brain cavity and little body via ultrasound. Those moments make the others bearable. I was released from our reproductive endocrinologist at 7 weeks and was told to monitor a subchorionic hematoma and continue taking the progesterone suppositories and no working out for the first trimester (not like I had the energy or stomach for it anyway!). At 10 weeks we met my new OBGYN and heard Little Bean’s strong heartbeat again! I have been progressively feeling better- a little more energy, bigger appetite, more sleep – Praise the Lord!

And then there was yesterday… we had an ultrasound appointment and my heart was completely taken. Little Bean isn’t so “little” anymore- LB was moving all around and looked like perfection! Allan and I freaked out when we saw LB waving arms and kicking, “It’s moving!!” we both yelled. It was so crazy, we laughed and I cried… Every time I see Little Bean, I become more in awe of our Creator. This little life is moving and growing inside me and I don’t even feel the movement yet (definitely feel the symptoms though! lol). Oh AND we will know the gender in less than two weeks thanks to blood work so..stay tuned! And let me know your guess…pink or blue?!

Here’s Little Bean’s growth so far:

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:13-14

Thank you for your continued support and prayers. You all are amazing; the texts, calls, gifts, letters, encouragements have been so needed. We love you!